lost in thoughts

they say im not a good boy… well i dont really care.. i hate being good.. i hate having to think of other people first.. for the first time in my life i want to be selfish.. i want to be happy for a change . criticize me all you want, im used to it… practical? you want me to be practical? well this is me being practical. i have faith in fate and i dont think anything’s wrong with that.. it’s better than to just settle for what is available. I mean if it doesn’t feel right then why force yourself? i mean if i fall in love, i fall hard, and if its not hard enough then that just means i haven’t fallen yet… i’m looking for the one and i know i’ll find her… how will i know if dont do anything? haaay… you see what im trying to point out here? i don’t want to deal with regrets anymore, so i’ll do what it takes to find her… bahala na… so hate me all you want… im not a good boy naman diba?